Jus came bac from HK. It was fun bt tere are too too many ppl tere. So cant really shop tere bcs too crowded. Haha... bt of course i did bought sumthing bac. :)

The reason - I decide nt 2 go. I jus nt ready 2 c u guys holding hands. Sry. I hav already giv my best wishes 2 u two.
Nut : U will regret bcs no one wil like u wif the way that i liked u.

I really hav 2 go on diet! OMG! Getting fatter n fatter. Wuwu....

Miss my melb buddies so much! Bt everyone seems to b v.bc lately including me. :(

Sumthing was never meant to be ...

I miss everything in melbourne.

Goin out 2 dinner wif frens tis friday nite.

Miss them so much!

@ Penang nw.
Goin to many thing happen @ da same time.
Cant cry as well.
Feel exhausted n insecure.
My future is like a mist.
Dunnoe wat wil happen rite nw.

Bt no matter wat happen i m stil a very lucky gal compare to the others.
Thanks daddy mummy!

Thank you daddy mummy!
I noe I did make you feel dissappointed.
I m so so sorry!
Bt thanks 4 supporting me!

I v.scared of him n him.
I dunnoe wat 2 do wif u n u.
Omg, i think is my stupid personality problem again!
Arr... wat should I do?
M i b able 2 change my personality?
Better change n dun cause so much problems again, damn!

n u, i think i m really obvious.
Stop adding me ok! My year book? omg!
I giv up. I dunnoe wat 2 do wif u except ignoring u...
Is was already so long ago. I tot u hav 4gtten me.
I think u did noe i m avoiding u, rite?
Arr.. nvm. I m nt tat clever n i dunnoe wat r u think rite nw.
So, i dun assume n predict.

n u, pls stop asking me tat kinda questions!
I really cant stand it.
I noe exactly who u r n wat u r thinking.
I noe u too well.
V r frens bt nt object.
Stop comparing!
Think of my feelings.
I noe is ur personality.
N u hav lost urself too, jus like me!
Bt is really difficult 4 u 2 go out 2 da society wif tis kinda personality.
seriously...
So, pls stop it.

Miss melb weather!
Growing fatter n fatter bcs mummy keep cooking my favourite dishes...
I really need 2 do sum exercise!
p/s: I LOVE U DADDY MUMMY!

Refection of time .... FULL of regrets!
I din work hard enough!
Arr... y m i being so stupid.
I tot i m mature enough bt actually i m nt. They r the mature ones.
Too many stuff happen in the end of the yr.
I hav lost myself tere.
Feel so guilty towards my parents.
Sorry daddy n mummy!
Should i repeat one more year?
Waste of time n MONEY! Poor daddy! Sry!
Should i jus study @ Malaysia?
Arr... i dunnoe.
I m super sad right now n i hav no idea wat 2 do.
Feel like cryin bt my tears din come out as usual.
Can gt into da course tat i dun like den wat's the point of ...
I should nt skip lectures.
I should nt go n hav so much fun.

T.T

HOME!!! FINALLY! :D

Nt goin 2 slp tonite! Tryin 2 break my record 54 hrs. Haha... Frens goin bac tmr morning. Everyone mahjonging. I won 2 rounds. Omg! She n she damn gud keep winning 6 rounds n 5 rounds. Damn gud luck lol. Having a little gethering @ uropa tmr nite. Hope wil hav fun tmr nite. Getting fatter n fatter. Hw r? Keep fit lo! Dun eat so much! Mayb he is goin too.
He exchange letter wif her. I think he didi tel her abt his feelin 2 her. Mayb nex yr they probably wil gt together. Haha... I m hapi 4 him.
Feel v.excited. Din c parents 4 so long! Miss them! Miss everyone! Miss my frens! Love u all !

你们永远都会是我很珍惜，很重要的朋友！

习惯隐藏感情。
离别场合不适合我，我也不喜欢离别的场合。
每次只能以微笑带过。
可能是种逃避或是自私或是胆小的行为吧！
其实哭的定义是什么？
为什么只能哭才能表现伤心呢？
难道不哭得人就不伤心吗？
难道哭的人是真的伤心吗？还是只是表面上的。
不如把这当着只是长大的过程。
人在国外每年都要面对很多很多的离别场合。。。
终要学会习惯吧！
人都是有感情的动物。。。
但每个人表现的方式不同。
有人擅长表达自己的感情也有人不擅长表达感情。
无情。。。是让对方舍得离开。
抱在一起痛哭只会让双方又更多的不舍但还是改变不了结局 - 离开。
不如实际的想， 如果他们不和我连咯那我可以主动和他们连咯。
那我们还是会再见的因为我们还是朋友。：）
P/S： 不是不哭而是没必要哭。我们再见吧，我的朋友！

Last paper tmr! Accounting! Arr... Cant wait 2 go bac hum! I miss ipoh!
Hav 2 go gt boxes from sum random shops.
Hav 2 start packing! Hw i wish mummy here! Haha... so she can help me out! Arr... hav 2 b independent! T.T

1 2 shopping n enjoy myself!

Hav 2 keep fit! So tat i can look gud in those beautiful clothes n dresses!
Time past so fast! 1 yr dy! 1 yr jus by myself without my family around me.
Worry abt uni stuff! Bt stil hav 2 enjoy myself!
Bcs i cannot do anything nw!

Worry abt them bt mayb to maintain da situation nw is da best solution. V r stil frens bt jus nt as close as last time @ least v r nt enemy. Time wil diminish those brands in our hearts especially her. Soon she wil b ok. Soon everybody will b ok. V can stil wave happily @ each other wen v meet each other nex yr @ sumwhere in melbourne, stop by @ a cafe nearby and v chat abt wat v hav been doin lately.

He might purpose 2 her tmr. Omg! Hw r? Bt anyway, @ least he gt nearer to happiness. She is a really nice gal. So ... Haha.. I'l b ok!

Play a quiz jus nw...
What state is your heart in?
my result is my heart is scared by memories.
- you are both emotionally and physically scared a never ending pain caused by others betrayl,mistrust,and lack of reliabilty inflicted this pain.they say theres always a light at the end of the tunnel if you cant see it,maybe its true maybe its not but just hold on help is on the way.i hope

p/s: ...

10 days more! Goin bac hum! I wanna go hum! T.T
I love my family n my family love me!
I love daddy!
I love mummy!
I love my little brother!
Daddy loves me!
Mummy loves me!
Little brother loves me too!
@ least v love each other.
I want mummy n daddy! T.T

T.T

I feel so worthless.
Isit bcs of my personality?
I love everyone n i dun 1 2 hurt anyone.
Bt @ tis time i think me i m da one who causing all tis troubles to happen.
I really dun mean it.
I jus realise i dun hav da ability 2 protect ppl around me.
I feel so sad, bad, guilty n useless.
A typical "no use" prs.
Wen I 1 2 protect 1 side the other side wil gt hurt.
Wat can i do? Wat i do? Wat can i do?
Do u noe hw much i care abt u guys?
Did u think of my feelings too?
Y r u guys always run away from ur problems?
U think ur life wil b happy wif so many unsolve problems?
I m nt daring.
Bt i really make an afford 2 solve da problems. I really hav already try my best.
Tis year is a really miserable year 4 me.
Bt sumtimes you guys really hurt me.
I dunnoe wat 2 do nw.
Mayb is gud 2 leave u all alone. Keep distance wif u guys.
If u guys din meet me mayb ur life wil nt b so miserable.

Sry, is all bcs of me... T.T
I dun mean it. I should keep everything to myself. Really.
I shouldn't tel anyone..
Bcs secrets r meant to be hidden.

I dunnoe. Y i always involve in tis kinda situation. I always gt stuck in da middle. I feel so bad. Was so unhappy. I noe he hav done many bad things to us. Bt wat 2 do he's jus a child. At least tis is da reason i keep telling myself. I noe sumtimes he is really very over. Arr... i dunnoe.
I'l choose 2 4giv him den hating him bcs i dun 1 2 hate a prs. I hate da feeling of hating other ppl n he is really jus nt mature enough n he is stil a child.

They look match bt doesn't mean they siut each other.
They do nt look match bt mayb they suit each other.
I'l wish u all the best to happiness.
As long as u r happy.

Tis is my no.100 post! :) Finally i m nt emo today ( bcs most of da time tat i write is blog is wen i m emo). Everybody treat me v.gud. Goin bac hum soon in 2 weeks time. Wis al da best 4 my psy n acc. Given up on him. no friendship prob like da previous post. I love them n i think they love me too. :) Miss hum. Hav 2 start packing n write my eating list. :D Miss mummy's food. Wis al da best 2 everyone! <3

She says she doesn't like him anymore. Mayb tis is their way.

T.T

伤心。我真的有那么明显吗？为什么？觉得好像傻瓜哦！真的很像！不是很像应该就是！我就是傻瓜！心痛！妈妈我要回家！

我还是在心痛！ 啊！争气吧！

everything wil b ok,rite?

心痛！ 我很心痛！

什么都不是

我只是一个你利用来见她的借口。我知道的。但我能怎么样呢？你应该也喜欢她吧。那为怎么不认呢？你真的有介意我吗？ 不会吧。。 我不敢想也不敢猜，因为不想像她们一样。到底对你来说我是什么。。 一个可以利用的朋友？

M i doin the right thing? I don't noe... Hope everything wil b ok.

He smile ...

暧昧是一时短暂的狂欢和喜悦
如果继续维持下去的话
换来了两个人的尴尬和寂寞
甚至无意间伤害了别人和自己
也无意间被别人给伤了
倒时不知道该责怪谁才好
就会烦自己那一时的冲动很愚
要不就是他的主动和他那摸不着的思想让自己心慌意乱
暧昧要做个了断不容易
一个人是不能将此事办好要两个人一起解决
最好先将自己保护好
再顾虑别人不然身上会出现莫名的伤口
别人感受不到你的痛
但散发出的悲哀却
让人担忧你们看着办吧~加油！！！
暧昧=危险（自己+他）x未来

Wow... jiayan understand me! wuwu... touching man!

处女座终极完美分析
都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为“状态”。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。 　　

很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。 他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。 所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人. 而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的\\'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离\\'。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。 正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。 关于“洁癖”并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的“完美”格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。 关于“花心”一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。 关于“聪明”不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。 关于“单纯”处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的， 宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。 关于“幽默”都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。 关于“迟钝”别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。 关于“自私”处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。 关于“逃避”由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。 关于“内涵”处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。 处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样 来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。 处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。 处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。 处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

OMG! OMG! OMG! Do i look like BIG MAMA!? Arr... Feel like killing myself! God damn it! Arr... OMG! I look like BIG MAMA? Feel like crying! Oo... No no no! Kill me pls! Damn! How would i look like big mama? Should keep fit n go on diet man!

I dunnoe wat's happening. I m giving up. I'l b ok.

You can smile so happily wen u r wif her.
As long as u r happy.
Who m i? I m ntg. I'l b ok. I'l be alrite! Soon...

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴 安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我 也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪 我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份 包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多 我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开 我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份 安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你 是因为我太爱你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你
超过了友情 还不到爱情
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气 也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气!!!
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

暧昧是，比好朋友再亲一点，但比恋人远一点。
　　暧昧是，你会常常在QQ等他在线。当他几天没有在线，你就会有些担心。
　　暧昧是，你会不时去他的BLOG看看有没有更新；而且你会留意字里行间，他对你有没有什么暗示。
　　暧昧是，有感觉，然而，这种感觉不足以叫你们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。
　　暧昧是，明白人生有太多的无奈，现实有太多的限制。你知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手。
　　暧昧是，有进一步的冲动，却没有进一步的勇气。
　　暧昧是，他不是你的情人，但似乎他比你的情人更关心你和了解你。
　　暧昧是，你会编一条围巾给他，但大家从没有开始过。
　　暧昧是，虽然他不是你的情人，但他却会对你说：你对我是十分重要的。
　　暧昧是，你感冒时有一个会在晚上打电话来，特意提醒你服药，叫你盖好被子早点睡的普通朋友。
　　暧昧是，当你遇到问题解决不了的时候，你找不到你的男/女朋友，你第一个便会想起他。
　　暧昧是，每当他提及他的另一半时，你会万箭穿心。
　　暧昧是，为了逃避背叛的罪恶感。
　　暧昧是，甜津津又同时酸溜溜的。往往从未开始，已叫人不安，患得患失。
　　暧昧是，别人以为你们在搞地下情时，你会沾沾自喜。
　　暧昧是，别人问你们是否恋爱中，你张口结舌。
　　暧昧是，常常挣扎表不表白。你怕表白之后，你既得不到一个情人，却又失去了一个知心好友。
　　暧昧是，见到他，你会心跳。见不到他时，你会挂念他。
　　暧昧是，两个人都会互相猜想。他是不是已经暗示了什么？我是不是自作多情？
　　暧昧是，每天大家都会聊QQ，会互传手机短讯，无规律地偶然约会。
　　暧昧是，除了情人节之外，其它的节日，大家都交换礼物。
　　暧昧是，你很想多走一步，但又怕会吓怕了他。你会很小心流露自己的感情。
　　暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么。但虽然如此，你愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。没有责任，但你却很渴望去承担，不问回报。
　　暧昧,是一扇门，你可以停留在门外，也可以踏进房子里面。然后你不可以停留在门下面。门--永不是终点站。
　　我们暧昧，我们却不属于对方。

以前的我，笑得很甜哦！笑得好幸福！今天的我再也笑不出那个笑容。是因为遇见了你吗？你真的很像魔术师因为遇见你以后你把我变成了笨蛋！和你在一起永远不会知道下一步会发生什么？永远永远不会知道你在想什么。我也不敢猜，因为怕猜错也怕猜对！因为知道自己输不起。太在意你。

I'l b alrite!
No one wil noe. They wil never noe. He wil never noe. She wil never noe. Everybody wil never noe.
I dun 1 anyone 2 suffer. I dun 1 2 hurt anyone bcs I love everyone! Thanks 4 worryin me, my frens! I love u all.

Hope daddy wil t well soon! Love ya!

Omg! U r driving me crazy! I really cant stand it anymore. Gosh...
Wat m i doin? Wat r u doin? Arr.....
Keep distance keep distance keep distance!
Yo, cannot continue 2 b like tat. Seriously!
I think i really think too much! Omg! He gt sum1 tat he like ok. Y m i stil? aii... gosh... the most important thing is she like him oso! Aiyo... hpk u really v.stupid. V.v blur. v.v.v.siao! U r idiot. idiot r!
Stupid oso gt a limit bt y hpk stupid until no limit geh? Arr...
I should not like him. Should not! Cannot!
Heyy, he's a bad guy ok! Dun like him! He wil hurt u! Y hpk always like bad guys geh.
Arr... Wanna kill myself dy.

Loves you since 1997!

The differnce between T and F.

Distance, distance and Distance.

V r so near yt so far.

Stop emo.

Going nice dinner tonite! Yea...

" Sry, i like u! "

Disappointed... R u really like wat he said u r a gay? Omg! Although i find it rediculas bt y r u treating me so cold? Or u r tryin 2 keeping distance wif me? Bcs he told u i like u? Ooo... so complicated.. Actually, i dunnoe wat's happening nw. My mood turn very extreme lately. Is either v.high o emo. Tis kinda mood is driving me crazy. I jus cant pull myself away from all the problems. I jus... cant do it. I jus cant stop thinking abt it. Omg! Wat can i do 2 stop myself from comtemplating? Heyy boy, i hav 2 stop myself from thinking abt u bt cn u pls stop cuming 2 my dream. Omg! I cant even run away from u in my dream. If tis situation continue 2 b like tat i'l gt depression. Really! If tat was a gud dream den is ok. Bt i hav been very sad and experiencing heartache lately in my dream. I m suffering u noe? Err... feel like crying.

p/s: I like rice stick n fish cake! <3

Omg! My nails look scary! Yakka yakka...

Aii... i thought i m quite mature bt y stil cause so much trouble? Isit bcs of my personality? I m nt gud @ problems solving. Hw i wish i can be like u. Do nt need 2 think abt anything. Hw do u do that. Arr... nt fair! Wonder isit related 2 my horoscope? B stady... i need 2 b stady... i really need 2 b stady! Aiyo... u r driving me crazy! Wat can i do 2 u... ughh... sigh...

Actually las nite was really fun. Haha...
bt i've a really fat nite! :( Gosh... i look so damn fat in al las nite pic! Arr... should wrap myself up so i dun look fleshy... Y i 1 2 act sexy, huh?

YOU - Y u giv me tat kinda emo n sombong look las nite? hmm! Feel like biting u!

P/s : I should n mus go on diet! Arr...

Y da same kinda case keep happen n happen again. Isit really my personality problem? I cant b like her keep running away from problems. I dun 1. Bt i face it nw i oso cant do anything. Bt jus cant stop thinking abt it. Y m i like tat. Like tat i wont b hapi i noe... Although i m v.v.sad bt i cant cry.

p/s: suffocating - he wil never noe.

让。。。

我是不是该自私一些？怎么一直在让呢？别人有幸福，那自己的呢？

结束吧！开始已经错了！让所有回到原点。。。
我不该这么想，也不该抱有希望的。
加油！一个月很快过的，一个月过后那全部也都会回到原点。
原来我在你心中我什么都不是。竟然真的什么都不是。
我不哭，不哭。。

Pls dun b like tat anymore... I m really nt tat strong. I cant tel anyone. I hav 2 face it myself n solve it. I m alone. I cant hurt anyone anymore. I cant b selfish. I jus realise cant do anything. I dun like tat kinda feelin. I feel so helpless.

p/s: I hav learnt to catch myself bcs i noe he wont.

My heartache

p/s: U dunnoe n will never noe.

REMEMBER TO KEEP DISTANCE, KEEP DISTANCE N KEEP DISTANCE!

Hurt urself is better den hurt others. Think 4 the others!

Since i met u, u turn me into an idiot. Dun cry. Dun cry. Dun cry. U hav 2 be strong! Hav 2 rmb u cannot cry! U r nt allow 2 cry! Y dun u jus giv up? I miss hum. I jus wanna go hum.

I dunnoe wat 2 do wif u? Gosh... y u din go acc today? :( Distance distance distance...

First time chat wif u on msn. Haha... U r so cute. U ask me "m i v scary tat i hav 2 use her account to chat wif u" Of coz u r nt scary! :) Bt i cant hesitate anymore. I hav 2 let u go! Jia you!

" I do not stop fallin 4 u, i m jus stop lettin it show! "Wat can i do?

p/s: Jay chao's song is nice! Y i din c u on9 lately? Wat hav u been doin? My left eyes hav been jumping lately... Wat wil happen?

I'll try! I hav to try! Giving u up hav use up all my energy...

p/s: Do u noe my heart hav been bleeding lately? I even can feel the pain of my heart everytime i breath.

I noe u hav gt sum1 tat u like... I wish u'l b hapi. She is really good. She deserves ur love at least i think she's better den me.

p/s: I feel v.satisfy n hapi that u say " i need time 2 consider" at least u din say "i rather kill myself" at least u'l consider me. I hope tat's means in ur heart i m ok. :) As long as u r hapi, i m hapi. Thanks 4 cuming into my life!

Is time to say goodbye! Is time to give up! Life mus go on! U mus b strong pikkhoon! Dun cry! Dun cry! Dun cry! His sumwhere ... he is jus nt tat 1! Cum on! Giv up! U can do it!

有人说：处女座很龟毛，有洁癖，花心，情绪多变，冷漠自私，无情……诸多缺点，听完这些评论，处女座会付之一笑：知我者，解我心忧，不知我者，谓我何求？是呀，没有因哪有果呢？每个人做事总有她的目的和出发点，总有原因的。 龟毛洁癖？……人该有良好的卫生及生活习惯，使身体健康，才有生存的本钱！所以，干净整洁有什么错？洁癖不一定是生活习惯，很多处处狗窝都是非常的乱~~但是乱中却有秩序，她能轻易的找到自己需要的东西。洁癖可以是指感情方面，例如不能容忍一脚踏两只船或是不纯洁的感情~~~！龟毛？我还鸟蛋呢！！ 花心？…… 也许处处在没有确定对象之前会暧昧，会因为寂寞而和别人比较接近，但是不会做任何出格的事情，例如不伦恋或是第三者插足等~ 相对别的星座较少~！ 在感情刚刚确定下来时，处处的观察还没结束，所以一般刚刚开始恋爱的热度都不高。多疑是她的 表里不一？——表情深思或是沉默不语，大脑却在高速的运作。对于处女座，懂得思考和会思考，是一件乐事。对一件事情，别人也许只有一两种的猜想或答案，但是处女座的人不单纯只是想到结果了，还考虑了这事情的相关人和影响，及解决方式、措施等等。不要跟处女玩心机，不是玩不过，是你玩不起！ 敏感聪慧？……聪慧的人，是世界上最痛苦的人，比笨的人早预知结局，比钝的人更感触心灵的波动。处女座的手纹多有繁杂的小细纹，错纵交织，突显了这个星座的人心思细腻，感觉敏锐。她很想自己不要那么聪明，不要那么比别人都预兆到悲伤，只是，那都是本能的反应。有时，感情丰富的处处会因为一些身边的小事而突然的沉浸在自己编织的悲伤里，你只能看见她忧郁的表情、抿紧的唇、勉强扯着的微笑，却少有人能获知她的心情和心事。 完美世界？……处女座女子，多是领悟力强，心思细腻的人，往往神情都是带着忧郁。她们追求的是一种完美的精神世界，喜欢事情按照自己的意愿在进行，规律的生活秩序让她安定。她懂得人类的高尚的精神境界，在内心深处排演她自己的完美人生。何谓完美？呵~ 每个处处对事物的定义标准都不是一致的，但是她们都以自己的标准在追求生活，在塑造完美。你问我，什么是我的完美？安康的家人、小有成的事业、疼爱自己并忠贞的丈夫、乖巧的小孩……呵呵~ 太戏剧化了~`完美的人生是不可能的！！处女座深知，却不放弃梦想， 那么，推而求其次的话，我们追求个人事业的成功，或者是一段美满的婚姻或是爱情？或者~`或者~` 处女座给自己和别人的定位都是那么的清晰，即使概念模糊。 知性理智？……她喜欢吸取新知，因为每了解学习一项知识技能，都让她很充实，很有安全感。勇者无惧，但是智者，无畏也！呵呵~ 知识的海洋是无穷无尽的，处女座不停断的追求新知，提升自我。比起那些高大威武的士兵，隐藏于营帐的睿智的谋士也许更能让处女座找到自己存在的意义。光有肌肉是没用的，要有脑子！！！——处女座身边没有蠢人，只有同等智慧或是更聪明的人！！ 和聪明的人交流，不需要过多于解释说明，一点即通。因为处女座不罗嗦，除了一点可爱的碎碎念~呵呵~ 理智？ 处女座星座特性冷静和理智，在她平静防备的表情下面是理智冷静结的厚冰，她以她的标准在评判。不要在她面前吵闹，她的沉默冷静只会突显你可笑的不成熟稳重，毛躁。兵法言：动不如静，以静制动。浮躁让人心神不宁，冷静会更清晰的思考问题，更理智分析形势，做出果断而有效的判断！！不要说为什么处女座的人都是冷血动物！！！也许我们的外壳冰冷坚硬，但是血液却是沸腾的。冷静和理智只是星座特性，谁让我们是处女座。 安全感？……处女座是一种非常缺乏安全感需要安全感的星座，什么是安全感？生活的安定~ 忠实的情侣~ 工作的顺利 ~ 安全感最突显的是在感情方面。然后是家庭和事业（金钱）。为什么？首先，人是感情动物，处女座的人重现实，因为感情太伤人。多数处女座都有帮助过别人或是信任过别人却给背叛的事例。我们不需要很多朋友或是很多恋人，只要是缘分深厚的那个，就会莫名的坚持。但是往往得到那么一两个朋友或是恋人~~ 真心敞开了，却又给遗弃或是背叛了，那样的痛苦对于处女座来说是刻骨铭心，痛彻心扉。在大彻大悟后，她更加的冷漠和现实了！她的笑容都是防备。处女座对于背叛自己的人，施行报复的手段就不再顺应内心的慈悲了，就是要给你致命的打击让你知道处女座的人不好招惹！也会有另一种结局，没有报复，只是永世不往来。对未来的不确定，对人心的了解，对世事的透彻，都让处处很容易陷进不安中。延续狮子座的某些性质，习惯像困兽一样，躲起来自己舔伤口。世界很大，但是从始至终会守护会信任她的人太少太少，甚至没有，从始至终值得她守护信任的人又不知道该是谁~` 所以~还是一个人好`~ 孤独，也是处女星座的特征。孤独着，也是一种安全感，虽然有些寂寞。一个人吃早餐，一个人看电视，没有不去确定，没有无奈，因为从不曾期待。有时，我们需要狂欢，淋漓尽致的狂欢，却又突然黯然，有时我们需要独处，悄静无声的独处，但又需要温暖。处女座，好矛盾。真的是个矛盾的星座~~有时自己都不了解自己,所以外面的人只能看到表面,而内心呢?谁能明白~~在外面开心的笑,可事实呢,为什么要笑,不知道,只是彻底的放松后的表现,不思考时的表现处处是很有思想的,她的言论会很有说服力.但有时她们又思维有些混乱,不知所谓,乱乱的处处是直言的,坦率的,但因此她会说错话,她开始检讨自己,其实处处真的很爱责怪自己,把错都放自己身上,让自己更累.明明很缺乏安全感但却不肯承认,假装坚强,是有些虚伪么,有点怕我喜欢做个不思考的处处,虽然 什么都懂,但我更愿意什么都不知道,每天都开开心心的.

处女这样的女孩你还不满意？
　　这是最细心的女孩了，在她纯洁和完美的世界里，光站着都令人感觉无比舒畅。你跟她认识了一年，她帮你解決了几个麻烦？回答了你几个问题？问问她，你会得到相当准确的答案，「一天平均0.778个麻烦，共284件；而问题得換个基数，一小时平均0.193个，一共是1687个问题，喔！连你现在这两个问题也算进去了。」她还会补充：「虽然只有1687个问题，但我共回答了约3401个答案，一倍多一点吧！」她说了「只有」耶！　这样，你还忍心不满意？不疼爱？

处女座的女生最罩不住的男生星座是…天秤座
　　处女座的女生如果喜欢上一个人，会很清楚的表达立场，只爱对方，而且眼里只有对方，从爱上对方的这一刻起，所有的原则都是围绕着对方打转，可以为对方放弃一切，甚至连父母家人也如此，可是天秤座却连朋友也不愿意放弃，处女座不能理解，自己一切都照着天秤座的意思做，为什么他却不能为自己牺牲一点点。
p/s: he is libra

被她爱的幸福
　　小时侯看小公主双手相扣放在胸前，嘴里轻生的念着，王子快点到来的咒语。这很像处女公主的爱情故事，她们把自己囚禁在一个所谓“完美”的城堡里，如果你是爱她的王子，不要因为很难得到处女公主的爱而放弃她，因为在你去解救囚禁她的城堡中所受的一切她都看在眼里，看你为他再一次受伤，再一次为了爱她而奋斗，在你的艰辛里也充满了她对你的期待。看你的受伤而默默的掉眼泪，看你中途要放弃的失望，祈求你能坚持下去的祷告，也许再努力一下她的城堡的大门会为你而开呢？
她的温柔
　　处女座的女生对什么事情要求完美，当然不会放过她自己的。她会对你一心一意，温柔体贴的照顾你的日常生活。你出差在外，她会嘱咐你：“别乱吃东西，你的胃不好，我把胃药给你放在你的包里的第二个兜了。”如果你撒娇的说“我想吃你给我做的鸡蛋面，想的我都快留泪了。”估计你一回去就能吃上她充满爱的鸡蛋面了。其实当时的你只是想对她撒一下娇，你或许没想到她真的会给你做，而且会一直想着。但她会这样做，因为你是处女座公主爱的王子，因为你是他最爱的人。她会对你说的每一句话，悄悄的记在心头。“他今天胃又不舒服了，得提醒他注意身体了，我得去给他做点有营养的。天气又凉了，给他买副手套吧，他的手最怕冷了。啊，他最喜欢的作者又出书了，也不知道他买了没有，打个电话问问，要不要我给他带回去，好象他的电话卡没钱了，真是的，不计划计划的话钱，我给他买吧，……”不用担心自己的支出，因为你已经有了一个好的“管家婆”了，她不会任性的要你给她买什么东西，但她会帮你买很多贴心的东西，这就是处女座的女孩。所以，你一定要鼓励她，适当的表扬她，在她辛苦的把你的脏乱的屋子收拾的整洁干净的时候，不妨给她一个拥抱，不妨给她一句夸奖，：不愧是我老婆，多能干，来休息休息，累了吧，我给你拿饮料去。也不妨给她买点小礼物，处女座的女孩子懂事可毕竟也是女孩子嘛，女孩子是用来疼的不是吗？虽然她可能会有抱怨，那也是幸福的抱怨，：“你怎么这么不乖啊，我上礼拜我刚收拾干净的，你都不爱惜。”虽然这样抱怨着，不过一会可能她就会问：“饿了吧？我去做饭吧，你想吃什么？”虽然是这么抱怨着，不过她很喜欢这么平凡的生活，让她有家的感觉的生活，安全的，温欣的。她的温柔会一点一点的撒在你平凡的生活中。
她的知心
　　有的人喜欢找一个红颜知己，也喜欢找一个甜蜜的恋人，但又鱼和熊掌不可兼得所以一直苦恼。不过如果你是处女座的爱人的话，你应该不会有这样的烦恼，因为你的公主完全可以扮演这两个角色。我完全没有夸大其次哦！因为处女座的女生真的能让你有知心的感觉。把你在工作上的烦恼，和她倾诉，她会耐心的倾听，并且告诉你她的想法，给你出注意。并且安慰你，给你鼓励，不要放弃。她会带你去让你放松的地方，或者带你去一个可以让你发泄，减压的地方。她给你的建议你都要仔细的去考虑哦，当你按照她给的建议做的过程中，你会发现她有多用心去思考如何给你方法，给你帮助，你看到她这么用心为你着想一定会很感动，那么就赶紧打起精神来，这样就是回报她最好的办法了！她一直在担心你，所以你要最快打起精神。在人际关系上的麻烦最好去找她商量，把人与人的烦恼尽可以让告诉她。处女座对人的分析很准的，最好是你的朋友她也见过，这样她可以分析的更准确，而且她一定公私分明。“其实这件事我觉得是你不对，你带任性了……”“你可以这么说的……他虽然不对可是你这么做就可以了”“他这种人以后应该……”你和她倾诉完了不但心里会很舒服，而且会真的很有作用，你按照她的方法做的时候慢慢的会发现，你已经有自己独到的可以处理人际关系的方法了。处女座的女孩天生聪明并且天生见解很独到，这跟她的心思细腻是分不开的。别人的一举一动她都看到了眼里，而且她很有自知之明，她会通过别人的教训来给自己警惕，她会不时的审查自己，同样的别人的进步，她也看到了，所以你不用担心她没发现你的进步，“那为什么我很想听到她的表扬的时候却听不到呢？”因为她也有她的顾虑，比如她了解你爱骄傲所以不当时说出表扬的话，比如她想看到你更加努力后的结果时再表扬你，或者因为她“嫉妒”了，她觉得你进步好大，她也要赶紧加油了，所以不现在夸奖你，她想等赶上你以后再夸奖你呢！这也许就是处女座女人可爱吧！
　　处女座的女孩既有男人的坚强又有小女人的可爱，所以不要以为她很坚强，是女强人，她也有需要关怀的时候的。处女座的女生，有的时候很明白那个道理可还是控制不住自己，别看他很聪明可往往犯很笨很可爱的错误，这时候就是王子你出场的时候了，好好守护你处女座的公主吧！每个女孩都曾是无泪的天使，当遇到自己喜欢的男孩时，便会流泪--于是变为凡人。所以男孩一定不要辜负女孩，因为女孩为你放弃了整个天堂！每个男孩都曾是地狱的恶魔，当遇到自己喜欢的女孩时，便会动心--于是变为凡人。所以女孩一定不要辜负男孩，不然男孩又要回到地狱。处女座的女孩不会让你回到地狱，所以你也不要让她轻易的回到像守夜天使一样的日子！

I miss roti tisu n roti everest! muaskz! <3 :p

FULL OF ?
Do he tel u anything? Do he like me? I dunnoe n i dun dare 2 guess. Curious... Who do u like den? I did not stop falling 4 you i jus stop letting it show :( I thought i can handle it. Bt i cant... "I think so" tis is your reply. Wat r u thinking? I dun dare to guess. I dun 1 2 guess. Wat i can do? May i run n cry in the rain. I like rainy days. Rain can cover everything! After a rainy day that's a brand new day again!

Y u dun " hi " me, huh? Bad boy!

Improving! :)

Stil dunnoe wat 2 do.... Focus focus..

我想为自己呼吸！可以吗？我的心好痛，请不要再这样了！

I dunnoe wat 2 do.... M i so fun? So gud 2 bully... Err...

黃昏下的琴鍵太寂寞來來去去只剩很拙的雙手陪著固執的我不停彈奏不停地犯錯想起他為你唱歌時的溫柔我會笑著難過他能給你保護 代替我的照顧這是我最後的祝福謝謝你的結束 冷卻後的殘酷謝謝你的知足 告訴我別再付出謝謝你的溫度 記憶留在最初謝謝你曾讓我 幸福不停唱著愈來愈清楚想起你看他眼神中的滿足我學會了服輸他能給你保護 代替我的照顧我只能偷偷地 為你祝福謝謝你的結束 冷卻後的殘酷謝謝你的知足 告訴我別再付出謝謝你的溫度 記憶留在最初謝謝你曾經讓我 幸福想著手心的感觸想著臉頰的溫度謝謝你那些年 為我付出謝謝你的結束 冷卻後的殘酷謝謝你的知足 告訴我別再付出謝謝你的溫度 記憶留在最初謝謝你曾讓我們 幸福

Really?
p/s: ferry wheel rocks! Haha... Disappearing? keke... Love ya!

She feel sorry 2 who? Do u feel sorry to me? I dunnoe... Hope day wil past peacefully. :)

I dunnoe wat's happening now. I fall in love wif tis song "I m yours" by Jason Mars. "So i wont hesitate no more, no more." 随缘吧！I dunnoe whether m i loving u... Bt is ntg i can do. I cant do tat. It's wrong. Even v start wrongly. Hw 2 gt together? Din c u today... :( I skip drama? Erm... gosh... y m i talk like u? haha... I like 2 cal ppl boy now. :p

I dunnoe wat's goin on... day passes day by day.... Life mus go on. Cum on! Cheer up!

Do u noe tat i m cryin in da rain?

Did u regret of ur decision? Sorry 4 putting u in tis position! I feel really guilty. I m a really bad prs. I din think abt u. I dunnoe wat's really goin on between u n her. Bt in tis situation i noe i reallly cant do anything. My heart gt a kind of taste. Tat's sour... I dunnoe wat r u thinking. I oso dun dare 2 guess wat is she thinking.I dunnoe whether did i do anything wrong o nt. I jus 1 2 say sorry 4 putting u guys in tis position. If i can i wont do tat. Tat's y i say i regret 2 b so close wif ppl in da hostel. I dun 1 2 t involve in tis kinda drama. I think is my personality prob. Really! Y m i causing tis happen n happen again? I think is my prob... Sorry.... I dun 1 2 loss 2 of my close frens bt i really cant do anything. Sorry! Sorry n sorry!

U do tis to me. U r too over. U r way out of my limit. I cant believe i m so so stupid. Try 2 protect u. Bt ... I dunnoe wat 2 do wif u dy. So, jus let it b la. I din do anything bad to u. U act infront of other ppl. Nvm... u better continue acting if nt ppl wil discover u r fake. U really make me angry. U r so genius. U b able 2 hurt me tis much... So clever!

Y ppl dunnoe hw 2 appreciate me? M i really so not valuable? Mayb is my own problem.... I hav 2 solve it. If not tis will happen again, again n again.
p/s: I hope 2morrow will b a better day!

Sorry i dun mean to do tis, really. I m v.sad bcs of u. Wat r u thinking? I scared... I dunnoe wat 2 do. U r v.important to me. V r best fren. Bt sumthing i really cannot tel u, really. I really cant tahan anymore. Bt stil hav 2 tahan bcs i really cant tel u. I cant hurt u. As a fren tis is da only thing i can do 4 u. Can u understand me? I hope so... I can understand u. I try 2 think in ur position. I noe ur feelings. Bt do u think of my feelings too? Sry, i dun think so. If u did u wont do tis kinda thing 2 me. It's really hurts me. I feel really bad n hurt bcs of u. I dun even noe whether i can treat u like las time. I really dunnoe. U really hurt me. Two of us is tryin 2 lessen ur pain bt ... y dun u try 2 understand us? Sry, i feel quite pissed off now. V r frens 4 so long i thought u noe me. I noe i dun use 2 tel ppl abt my own feelings. I jus too use 2 hide it. Bt u r already run out of my limit. I try my best 2 help u, think 4 u, try 2 feel ur feeling. Wat m i do all tis 4? Y u dun trust me tat i wil not do anything bad 2 harm u? Y dun u try 2 think @ my position? Two of u r v. important to me. Hw m i suppose to make decision? I cant jus betray either one of u. I 1 2 cry. Y cant i jus cry. I'l feel better. U r v.cruel. U really hurts me. I dunnoe i din feel tis kinda feeling b4. I m tryin 2 help 2 solve ur problems bt u ....
M i too 8? I noe i shouldn't gt involve. I try 2 withdraw bt i jus cant let u guys b like tat. I dun 1 either 1 of u gt hurt. I feel i m like a mother.. omg! Bt u really hurt me. I dunnoe whether i can treat u same as last time. Y dun u think of my feelings? Do u noe wat m i feeling? U dunnoe... I scared i say sumthing wrong wil cause u two 2 do sumthing tat make u two regret. U two r my frens. I dunnoe wat 2 do. I dunnoe wat 2 do. I dunnoe. I wanna go hum. Mayb too much things happen @ da same time i cant take it. Too much mis understanding. Too much love. Too much care. Too much predictions. Too much assumation. It's all too much, too much n too much! Hey nut, hav 2 face ur problem n solve it. Everything will b alrite. Luckily, i hav a blog. If nt i duunoe wat 2 do. Now @ least i can tel me real feelings to a space. I always tel myself like tat. Bt... y m i bcum weaker n weaker? I thought i m strong o i m jus lyin 2 myself tat i m strong. I dunnoe. I m really a nut. Tat's y my blog name is nut's dairy.
P/s: Y m i not a guy? Girls' world is too too complicated.

11/10/2008

Happy Birthday, my dear!

I feel guilty i should not say tat to him. Sorry!

朋友

我过线了吧？对不起！

suffer - sad - dunnoe wat to do - care vs dun care - popular vs unpopular - like - consequences - factors - cannot - over - guilty - bad
I feel guilty towands him n her. I m so bad so so bad. V.v bad. I m so sorry sorry n sorry! I m too bad.

She tol d me sumthing abt him. Wow... gosh... i dunnoe wat 2 do wif u. Damn it! Hw can u do tis? Omg... Wat r u thinking? Chekgapak!

Whee.... happpy?

Morning - stairs - smile - heyy :) - hallo :)
Wow.. him man... :) :)
Afternoon - on da way bac to hum - on da way to drama - Union rd - wave :) - red n white stripe polo T.

Improving.... :) Chocolate shirt wif pink colour collar.

放弃吧，傻瓜！

By the way i wanna giv up on u bt i scared she wil steal u from me.
I m selfish. I dun1 u two breakup so tat she wont steal him from me.
I think u hav abit feelin 2 him. M i rite?
p/s: V r best fren pls dun steal him from me.

请不要分了以後　 还记得亲吻过的承诺 你的永久　已不属於我 默默低头　那时我很多　 话哽在喉咙 你的笑你的快乐　 或许我爱太多想太多 我能感受　他比我适合 爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　 比你先说分手 请原谅我　原谅我不成熟 不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我 请原谅我　好想自私将你占有 你的寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活 请不要分了以後　 还记得亲吻过的承诺 你的永久　已不属於我 默默低头　那时我很多　 话哽在喉咙 你的笑你的快乐　 或许我爱太多想太多 我能感受　他比我适合 爱放了手　我伪装冷漠　 比你先说分手 请原谅我　原谅我不成熟 不爱你是藉口　好让你离开我 请原谅我　好想自私将你占有 你的寂寞就给我承受 换你过更好的生活 爱过恨过哭过也笑过 亲吻过你的脆弱 其实我比谁都要懦弱 原谅我　必须假装爱错 别让时间逗留　我怕说不出口 原谅我　没有解释太多　心痛 别无所求　彻底忘了我 爱原来有舍得 我爱过　我才懂

Meaninful lyrics from me to you. Wanna tel u these... Sorry, i love you! Bt hav 2 let u go... i jus cant b so selfish.. My life stil hav 2 go on.

Red colour strip t-shirt? Ughh... I dun like red. Bt u look gud. :) I jus cant pretend tat i din c u... :( Gosh... since i met u i hv bcum a nut! @_@ U make me feel dizzy. I always scared i'l do da wrong decision since i met u.
p/s: Sumtimes i feel like telling u, "Heyy boy, u drive me crazy!"

Ur favourite word to me - Heyy!
My favourite word to you - Halloo!
Wen r v goin 2 talk more? Do u noe tere's one more kind of species in the world cal gal?
Omg! I cant imagine u 1 2 pour cold water through my cm. Gosh... she's a gal.

I can feel she gt less chance through his attitude. I dunnoe ... Hav dinner wif u. Supposingly, it wil b nice bt i decide 2 giv up on u. It is bcs i noe v r almost hav no chance 2 b together. I think u dun like 2 tel ppl ur inner thought (even them do not noe u; u dun trust ppl so easily, rite?). Sry abt bein so cold 2 u today. I really dun 1 2 b like tat. Bt if i 1 2 stop myself from liking u. I hav 2 do tat. Ppl think i wil not gt really hurt n can over cum it easily bcs v r not close. Bt y m i stil feel so sad n my heart wil pain n hav tat kinda soury feelin everytime i c u. I dunnoe wat 2 do. Can i giv up on u o i'l b jus like her keep liking n 1 2 giv up @ da same time? I dunnoe wat wil happen in da future bt i m sure i wil suffer by stopping myself from liking u.

习惯错过。。。那就尊守约定吧！2011年。。。

Sorry, I love you!

为什么我会有心痛的感觉？对不起！我不是习惯了祝福别人吗？为什么我还会有心痛的感觉呢？一直以为自己很坚强。原来我还是没有变。。。没关系，我不是已经习惯一直隐藏自己的感情吗？那就继续啊。。。想哭啊？那哭得出吗？哭不出吧。。。那就忍吧!

I m da stupid one. Y i m so stuborn to insist my own rule? Is better 2 pretend like everyone else so that u can take advantages of the others too... Bt I REALLY CANT! CANNOT! I DUN 1! I m not lier u r. To a lier, a lie bcum a truth, a truth bcum a lie... tat's reality. Hw i wish i m a boy.. so tat i dun hav 2 worry abt tis kinda girly drama. Girl jealousy?.. wow... scary man. They r u so so cruel. So so scary... If i 1 2 live in tis world i hav 2 b braver n more courageous... more n more!

I HATE PRETENDER!

M i deperate? I m... bt i jus cant force myself 2 love sum1 tat i dun love o force sum1 tat i love 2 love me wen he is not. I hav 2 b fair to everyone. I cant jus do sumthing 2 cause any thing bad happen o hurting ppl jus bcs of myself. I hav 2 resist. I cant break my own rule. Try not b less selfish bcs every1 is selfish. Try 2 think 4 the others... bt m i thinking too much for them. 我是便利贴女孩吗？

Y gals mus b so weak? Y gals mus cry to show they r weak? Y ppl like 2 pretend 2 b sum1 who they r not? Wat m i suppose 2 do? Pretend like u guys? I wanna b myself! I dun 1 2 b a pretender like u guys. I M WHO I M... Y ppl like 2 gt attention? I noe... sumtimes i would like 2 gt sum1's attention too. Bt m i suppose to pretend myself like the others so tat i cant gt ur attention? Ppl often pay attention 2 ppl who they think r nearly perfect. Bt do they noe there r no perfect ppl in tis world. Wen u meet a perfect prs mayb he/she is not showing the true them 2 u. Won't u feel afraid? U r living in a world full of pretender? I cant stand pretender. Bt sumtimes u jus cant live without pretending. Sum ppl hav 2 pretend so tat they can gt wat they 1 more easily.
She hav already purpose to him. Wat is his decision? I dunnoe. Bt i hav already giv my advise. Will he give her an answer which can surprise her? I hope my suffering worth sumthing. Bt if they get together. I should not gt too close 2 him anymore to avoid sum similar accident happen again.
He use my msn n chat wif him las nite. I can c my chance through ur wording. U r not interested in me rite? Haha... I noe.. bcs normally i m always da most ordinary gal in my friends group. I dun pretend so din gt any attention from anyone. Being ordinary is my specialness. Bt tis kinda specialness wil not be appreciate by others. Wen can i meet u, my mr.rite? I hav already noe your though so i wont put any expectation towards u. "Expect nothing and appreciate everything!" Can i live life 2 da fullest by not pretending as sum 1 else? I JUS WANNA BE MYSELF! God damn it! I dunnoe wat 2 do wif u. If i pretend 2 b sum1 else will u fall in love wif me?

I scared she wil rampas him from me. She say if she fall in love wif him. She will steal him from me. He is her dream boy. Hw can she resist such nice boy like him. She cant, even i cant. I scared. I m like really fall into him. I dunnoe wat 2 do. Do u understand my feelin?

I like him! He is da most popular boy in AH according to 'him'. I m curious who do u like?

I DUNNOE WHETHER M I DOIN DA RIGHT DECISION... M I TOO BAD... BT... I REALLY CANT STAND EMO PEOPLE! SRY! MAYB I M DA ONE WHO IS EMO...
EVERYBODY NOES I M SELFISH.

Chance

He is a really bad person always make full use of other people. Y si he so over protective bt i m tis kind of ppl too. Go badminton wif amy today. Enjoy n having fun wif them. :) Went to c them play soccer today after badminton. Can c the other side of them... :P

I m too use to let go... I feel scared... i always giv me best wishes to my frens. Hope i'l meet my mr.rite one day! :) Stress .... essay! arr..

Two road diverge ... V cum from two different world. Will u wan 2 noe more abt me?
Wil u ....

Din c him today...
Bt i tel them abt my secret... i hope they wont tel anyone...
好想爱他很多很多！
Think abt him today.. Y always like tat? Wen i almost 4gt abt him... he wil accidentally appear in my mind.. wat r u doin nw? I m thinking abt u... Do u stil rmb me?

He is so tat smart n handsome! :) Bt v wil b goin though different path nex yr... :( I'l miss him... I feel so happy tat i can c him everyday. "V r so near yt so far. Bt i'l stil love you... I m nt greedy.. I dun 1 anything from you as long as u r happy." Goin to talent quest afterwards... wil c him :) Sumtimes feel like telling him : "you r my dream boy!" Wonder wat u think abt me? Dunnoe whether v hav the chance to noe more abt each other... I'll miss u nex yr! I like your smile... so sunny...
P/s: do u feel better today? I'l always love you! :) I hope can giv u a really v.bright smile everyday. :)

I love you as you do, my dear!!! Just follow ur feelings... <3 wif lots of love... :) I'l always b tere 4 u. Pls do love her, she is a nice gal.
p/s: i love u.

今天玩了心里测验，它说：
過去你們彷彿走在兩條平行線上，每次都會不小心錯過彼此。但你們始終是有緣的兩個人，平日背馳而行，最近兩人繞過一圈後卻很容易在街頭的轉角處巧合相遇。這不是偶然，而是命中注定，主動、大方一點，牢牢把握住自己的愛情吧。

〉我也想爱你但我不能。我不能伤她。你值得更好。我是已经没有心的人。因为我很爱很爱另一个他。7年，我不能不爱他。他是我人生最美丽的回忆。我也不能对你不公平。我真的很自私，很自私。但没办法，只好希望你幸福。对不起！我不能忘了他。我真的很喜欢很喜欢很喜欢他。

我很开心他们和好了。真的！他没有对她冷淡，那真的是太好了。虽然我可能会很伤心但是都是值得的。因为他们都是我很喜欢的人。我不想因为我而造成他们的阻碍。爱他只能在梦里。

Who i m

我是个坏人。不知道为什么时常对好友喜欢的人有好感。我真的很坏！我不是个好人。我是个有心机的人总是情不自禁的为自己织造机会。想和他多聊，多了解他。虽然，明明知道不应该。但我也是胆小鬼，因为我不会争取自己喜欢的。我只会逃避。时常当他开始也对我好时我就退缩。因为我不想伤害我的朋友。对不起！我真的不想这样。这种感觉真的很难受很辛苦。和他要保持普通朋友的距离不让任何人怀疑。连在好朋友前也不能表露任何的痕迹。我并没有要介入他们的意识。这里是我唯一能变诚实的地方。我很辛苦也很烦恼。为什么会这样呢？我不会跟他们抢的。因为我知道他们值得比我跟好的人。我也不能这样伤我的好友。不能！说喜欢你只能在梦里。

Who i am...

I m an ordinary girl... The most special abt me is i've gt the best parents in the world... they r the best prs that i've ever met... They love me n i love them... I gt an extremely cute brother... although he gt abit naughty sumtimes bt i stil love him... erm... sumtimes i've too many secret tat can't tel anyone... terefore i decide to start a blog... on the other hand, i wanted to tel sumone bt tere are always sumthing tat is blocking me... n i'l regret if i do it bcs it might hurt sumone... i dun 1 2 hurt sumone... i love everyone arround me... i dun 1 they 2 gt hurt bcs of me... i jus 1 them 2 b themselves... 1 them 2 b free... bcs i love them... i m ok wif anything as long as ppl arround me feel hapi.

The furtest distance

The furtest distance in the world is not between life and death,
but when i stand infront of you, yet you don't know that i love you.
The furtest distance in the world is not when i stan infront of you, yet you can't see mt love,
but when undoubtly knowing the lov efrom both, yet cannot be together.
The furthest distance in the world is not being apart while being in love,
but maily cannot resist the yearning, yet pretending you have never be in my heart.
The furthest distance in the world is not when plainly cannot resist the yearning,
but yet pretending you have never been in my heart.
But using one's indefferent heart to din an uncrossable river for the one who love you.

世界上最遥远的距离，不是生与死
而是我就站在你的面前，你却不知道我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离，不是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起
世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明知道彼此相爱，却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念，却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
世界上最遥远的距离，不是明明无法抵挡这股想念，
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
而是用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠