Just Be Yourself

Sorry i dun mean to do tis, really. I m v.sad bcs of u. Wat r u thinking? I scared... I dunnoe wat 2 do. U r v.important to me. V r best fren. Bt sumthing i really cannot tel u, really. I really cant tahan anymore. Bt stil hav 2 tahan bcs i really cant tel u. I cant hurt u. As a fren tis is da only thing i can do 4 u. Can u understand me? I hope so... I can understand u. I try 2 think in ur position. I noe ur feelings. Bt do u think of my feelings too? Sry, i dun think so. If u did u wont do tis kinda thing 2 me. It's really hurts me. I feel really bad n hurt bcs of u. I dun even noe whether i can treat u like las time. I really dunnoe. U really hurt me. Two of us is tryin 2 lessen ur pain bt ... y dun u try 2 understand us? Sry, i feel quite pissed off now. V r frens 4 so long i thought u noe me. I noe i dun use 2 tel ppl abt my own feelings. I jus too use 2 hide it. Bt u r already run out of my limit. I try my best 2 help u, think 4 u, try 2 feel ur feeling. Wat m i do all tis 4? Y u dun trust me tat i wil not do anything bad 2 harm u? Y dun u try 2 think @ my position? Two of u r v. important to me. Hw m i suppose to make decision? I cant jus betray either one of u. I 1 2 cry. Y cant i jus cry. I'l feel better. U r v.cruel. U really hurts me. I dunnoe i din feel tis kinda feeling b4. I m tryin 2 help 2 solve ur problems bt u ....
M i too 8? I noe i shouldn't gt involve. I try 2 withdraw bt i jus cant let u guys b like tat. I dun 1 either 1 of u gt hurt. I feel i m like a mother.. omg! Bt u really hurt me. I dunnoe whether i can treat u same as last time. Y dun u think of my feelings? Do u noe wat m i feeling? U dunnoe... I scared i say sumthing wrong wil cause u two 2 do sumthing tat make u two regret. U two r my frens. I dunnoe wat 2 do. I dunnoe wat 2 do. I dunnoe. I wanna go hum. Mayb too much things happen @ da same time i cant take it. Too much mis understanding. Too much love. Too much care. Too much predictions. Too much assumation. It's all too much, too much n too much! Hey nut, hav 2 face ur problem n solve it. Everything will b alrite. Luckily, i hav a blog. If nt i duunoe wat 2 do. Now @ least i can tel me real feelings to a space. I always tel myself like tat. Bt... y m i bcum weaker n weaker? I thought i m strong o i m jus lyin 2 myself tat i m strong. I dunnoe. I m really a nut. Tat's y my blog name is nut's dairy.
P/s: Y m i not a guy? Girls' world is too too complicated.